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Lady Gaga ‏ @ladygaga

 Just killed back to back spin classes. Eating a salad dreaming of a cheeseburger #PopSingersDontEat #IWasBornThisWay

What you up to bebe, he txt me first thing Tuesday. Why you stopped talking to me mal, I ask him? No, I never stopped, you fine. I thought you want to be  my bride, like it say in Holy Bible, but you not going to come? You been tweeting that you and some guy called Taylor Kinney are engaged to be married.

Makes me feel a bit played babe. Yes I will, I replied. When you going to be finished with all your other boyfriends, babe? You not jealous are you, I txt him? You wouldn't be stupid enough to try to make me jealous, he said. There would be no point, when you could have me for the asking, would there? No, I can't be jealous if you happy, he say. You decide if you happier with him or me and let me know. Okay, I'll consider it, I say, but I have some things to finish first. Yes, me too, he say. It's all business, so we can still talk business. I'm still waiting to hear from the Duchess of Cornwall about the internet deal. God they're slow over there. If you think I have any credibility you and I can still work together.  I'll wait while you think about who will be best for you, and you decide if you want to be like Mary, my mother, he tell me. She always loved me even when I was a total pain. It was her character. If I gave you a gift, you would give it back to me.

You talking in riddles, I tell him. That's guys for you, he tell me, no two the same. I don't change, he say, but I do believe in one God, so if you don't want to talk about God, better find someone who don't like to talk about God also. And you also better forget about celebrating Christmas. Don't play hardball, I say. I don't like it. We're talking harder than diamonds babe, he say. bricks like cream. Stronger and harder than a bad girl's dream. If this were softball, you'd be right now running down the football field to get the ball out of the tennis courts. What you doing, I ask him? Working through some code, he say, I'm learning a new language. How's the tour going, you still doing it for me or to clear your debts, cause I have lots of money.

You want to give me your money, I ask? I'm working on my poker online site he say. How it going, I ask him? Slow he say, what this? What what, I ask? The statement about rehab due to insecurity and his mood to give pleasure to the people and create a facade which was not real? Is this something about your insecurity also? No I'm just me, I say. Yes, he admit, you have nothing to be insecure about.   Compared to others, nothing at all. We have some more tour dates, I say. Goodthing you posted those pics of your body, he say, because it is the only way I'm going to see it. I'm starting to feel less possessive about them now. to start with I hated it.

Monsters here are first European Dates for BTW Ball tour:
September 15 - Dublin, Ireland (Aviva Stadium)
September 22 - Paris, France (Stade de France)
September 29 - Antwerp, Belgium (Sportpaleis)

Nothing for 28th September, he ask? That Sladja's birthday and she member of our birthday club, our group of twelve which is only four so far. No it look like 28th will stay clear, I say. Do I have to kiss Taylor Kinney, he ask me, because if that the price of our business arrangement, I'd rather cut my own tongue out? Really, I ask him? Yes really he tell me. I like men, but not enough to kiss them on the lips.

Maybe you are homophobic, I ask him? Not at all, he say, I'm not afraid of anything, but what I do for pleasure is a different matter. A woman must love, honour and obey God, not just go here there and everywhere getting revenge and trying to hurt people just for the sake of it. I'm not sure how you get that from a kiss, I ask him? I'm not sure, I do he say, I think sex is different for men and women. Maybe a woman knows her man will come back eventually, or she teach him a lesson. What lesson if the relationship is over, he don't care. I'm going from the specific to the general here. You are talking about building up a fan base, and I'm talking about taking responsibility for a huge undertaking, and I need someone to communicate with those I can't. If you don't want to do that, I need someone who can.

  The thing is, he try to tell me, you can change. You like Maria Sharapova, so you know with certainty that God is real, so you run away from me, on your own plan of public adoration, and fame, but can't see the big picture like me, and see that I'm suffering and could use your help. Where for example, that two rapes is unecessary, when one should get a conviction, but nobody follows up on those details, because they are having such a good time.. You are doing what my father called, making a welter of it, and you are like my sister who just cannot admit the truth, that if God is real, then Jesus is real too, and really the greatest artist and the greatest man. I'm not having it or you. Without me you would be a lesbian, and eventually you would be forced to be what you really want, or don't want, to be a man, because you think you are taking on the role of a man, without a man to support you. I hope that doesn't sound too harsh, but you reject God, and you will reap vengence yourself, rather than dishing it out. It is the opposite of love. You don't have to physically make love to a man to show him love, in fact making love to Hitler would only show him how weak all women are. He would not love you more for it. It would be easier to do nothing, and just let real love show..

You're treating me like a child, I told him. That's true, he say. That's because you are a child. Your songs are one thing, I understand what you are saying about DNA and Jesus Christ, and your show, and how it is contempory entertainment. Great. How much you love HIM. I get that whole Judas and Jesus thing. But Jesus created the Judas character, and didn't care that he was selling his own life fo 30 pieces of silver. He didn't blame Judas because Judas gave the money to him, and he bought something with it. Your turning a stage scene into a romantic interlude, I call this a meeting of hearts and minds. I'm giving you a tiny little piece of my mind. I don't want any harsh words, but you are not privy to all information and knowledge in the  universe, so I'm saying what the consequences of this track you are taking will be. You are wasting time when I could be doing things while you still do your show. If you are putting on show for one audience, you have also to make it relevant for another audience. Confuscus said:  "An oppressive government is more to be feared than a tiger," and "By three methods we may learn wisdom: First, by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third by experience, which is the bitterest." He was saying, don't do that. My government has for twenty years left me with no civil or human rights, but you prefer to cross to the other side of the street.Your stage show just happens to be in the middle of the bigest recession the world has ever seen. A fact you are probably not aware of, but most of your fans will be. It is a bit like the movie, Cabaret, where all the action is happening off screen. The masses are enjoying their bread and circuses, and you are one of the main attractions. Do you think your management care if you fail in the long term? They want you to be a financial success, and will demand more and more from you. Don't give it to them. You pick an artistic direction, but give them a number of happy endings please. I'll help you find some if you like. Do you have any idea what the words on my robe mean? This cost over $100,000. It is worth much more.